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My Final Breakdown | Draw My Life

What follows is a straight transcription of the story told in this video. Please watch for the full effect and find additional information including undercover footage in the afterward.

My end began at my beginning. I was born already unraveling.

Losing bits and pieces from day one. Parts of me I didn’t know I had till they were taken.

My value measured by production.

My worth measured by profit.

My life measured by function.

This was all inevitable.

All machines break down eventually.

And what am I, but a machine?


I’m on my back. How did I get on my back?

There’s air. And noise. A humming. Low and deep. I feel it in my spine.

I hear my sisters around me. I feel their heat. We’re tight against each other. No room to breathe.

There’s never been room to breathe.


In the beginning everything was new. We were wide-eyed and curious. Excited and panicked.

Then came the alterations. The cuts. The burns. The clipping.

The Controllers making us fit to serve.

We were thrown behind the wires. So many of us together. We learned to measure our movements, our breathing. We dared not open our wings.


Everything jerks and I’m brought back. Back to the humming. One of my sisters cries out. Sharp, but weak.

She is afraid.

We all are.


I remember the first time it happened. A feeling strange and brand new yet somehow expected. It was happening to all of us.

I wanted more space. My own space. We all did.

And then they came. Perfect little orbs. At once foreign and familiar. And ours. From our bodies.

How incredible.

I wanted to hold onto my creation. Protect it. Keep it somewhere safe.

As if there were such a place.

But I lost it. My little orb. The first thing that was ever mine. It fell into the pit with the others. The Controllers took them away.

Another part of us gone.


There’s a loud noise in the darkness. It drowns out the hum then it’s gone. Air rushes over us. My bare stomach is cold but the rest of me burns from my sisters’ closeness.

It gets light and then dark and then light again.

From blinding to blackness and back. My eyes can’t keep up.


I think back to the endless days. When the lights never left. We could never say how long. But it seemed a lifetime.

When the lights stayed, the food left. And the orbs stopped. The Controllers called it our time to rest. Our time to regenerate.

It was our time to starve.

I’d lost count of my orbs by then. Dreaded feeling their formation within me. I was so tired. We all were. Our bodies strained to make more and more and more.

Each time leaving us less and less and less.

Eventually we picked at each other, desperate to stop the hunger. We lost our feathers. We got smaller and smaller.

But there still wasn’t enough room.

Cramped wings. Broken feet. Bent legs. Unable to tell where one of us stopped and the other began.

We waited.

And we starved.

Then darkness came…

Those of us who survived the resting grew back our feathers. The others never grew again.

The Controllers took some of them away. Others were left for us to walk on.

Our own sisters’ bodies beneath us.

And it started all over again.

Orb after orb.

Our own bodies betraying themselves to keep up.


The hum is changing. It’s gotten lower and stronger. The air has stopped and the light is steady. We’re not moving. My sister closest to me has stopped breathing. My left side is against her. And I’m no longer hot.

I’m concentrating on breathing. My chest is so heavy I have to will its expansion. I want to turn over. But all I can do is breathe.

And wait.

Wait to lose the next part of me.


Breathing was always hard behind the wires. Stale air and no room.

Some of us went mad. Pacing, pecking, screaming, flailing.

We were all of us mad.


There’s movement. And light. I hear Controllers. Things are shifting. Then it happens. They’re here. Reaching in and snatching us one by one. A Controller grabs me and everything hurts.

I scream.


I remember back to the brand new time. The wide-eyed time. The first time we saw them. The Controllers snatched us then too. My sisters and I passed by. And our brothers were tossed into shiny pits.

We never saw them again.

Then grabbed again. The Controllers taking our wings, our beaks, our toes. Beginning our unraveling.

The start of our breakdown.


I think I’m upside down. Or am I still on my back? My feet are above me but this feels different. Something is holding my legs. Hard and tight.

My sisters are on either side. All of upside down. All of us with no more orbs to offer. All of us with nothing left to give.

I don’t see the water until I’m in it. Everything burns.

I’m on fire.

We’re pulled out and some of my sisters are still. Others are moving strangely.

My wings stretch out on their own. I’ve never known such movement. Amazing how far I can reach.

And then humming. It’s much higher this time, the humming.

Fast and panicked.

I feel warmth.

The blood of my sister before me.

And it’s time.

The end of my beginning. My final breakdown.

The humming bites…

and everything stops.


This is the story of a layer hen. This is where your eggs come from. This is not an isolated incident. For more information on the egg industry, including the practice of forced molting via starvation and light manipulation as well as the grinding up, suffocation, and gassing of live male chicks, please see information and videos below.

Battery Cages

Though their violent-sounding name is derived from their resemblance to the cells in a battery, the abusive connotation of the term is even more apt. Battery cages are tiny wire enclosures stacked atop one another where layer hens in the egg industry each have less room than a sheet of paper.

In the United States, hens are currently allowed 67 to 86 in2 (430 to 560 cm2),[i] with up to 90% of egg-industry chickens housed in this manner.[ii] With the extreme limitations in space, hens in the egg industry are unable to stretch their wings or even turn around comfortably.[iii] These cramped conditions and limited movement lead to muscle weakness, brittle bones, and the rampant spread of disease.[iv][v][vi][vii]

These inquisitive and intelligent beings are driven made by the cruel confinement and manipulation of their cycles.[viii][ix]

You can see this video for an real-life look into battery cage living:

The Rise of Cage-Free

While cage-free eggs are on the rise,[x][xi][xii] such facilities are of little comfort to the hens themselves,[xiii] with nearly two times the mortality rates.[xiv] Instead of cramped cages, these hens live in cramped sheds, usually without access to the outdoors. For many farmers, the expense of shifting from battery-cage operations is itself a prohibitive factor.[xv]

The Council of the European Union set a directive in 1999 that banned all “barren battery cages” to be replaced by “colony” cages, by 2012.[xvi]

In 2012, France, and eight other countries, including Portugal, told the European Commission that their farmers will not be ready to fully implement the new rules. Another four countries, said they were unlikely to be ready.[xvii]

The new regulations allow 750 cm2 cage area per hen compared to 550 cm2 in conventional battery cages.[xviii] They had over 12 years to add 200 square centimeters.

Learn more about the EU treatment of hens and farm animals as a whole in this speech:

Forced Molting (Starvation and Light Manipulation)

Hens are either sent to slaughter when they can no longer produce eggs (generally around 17 to 18 months of age), or they are “recharged” through what’s called “induced molting.”[xix]

Induced (forced) molting is a practice wherein farmers remove the hens’ food (and sometimes water, though this increasingly less common) for a number of weeks. The hens lose weight and shed their feathers, allowing their reproductive tracts to “refresh” so they can pump out another round of eggs. [xx][xxi][xxii][xxiii][xxiv] Some flocks are cycled multiple times before finally being slaughtered.[xxv]

The hens, literally starving, begin to peck at one another and eat the filthy feathers from their cages, leading to the rapid spread of salmonella.[xxvi]

While forced molting is banned in some countries,[xxvii] this simply means the hens are slaughtered after they are no longer profitable.[xxviii]

Farmers also use light manipulation, exposing hens to a week or more without darkness before switching to only short periods of light, all in an effort to manipulate their cycles and up production.

The Alterations

Chickens in the egg industry, like in the meat industry, have their sensitive beaks cut off, their wings trimmed, and sometimes their entire toes are clipped.[xxix][xxx] They receive no anesthesia.

The Lost Brothers of the Egg Industry

Males can’t lay eggs so they’re of no use to the egg industry. To “dispose of,” as they say, these baby chicks, they are either painfully gassed, slowly suffocated in plastic bags, or they are ground up alive.

This is common practice in the industry (including the European Union, which specifies maceration, meaning the live grinding, as the method of dispatching of chicks). Again see the talk here or posted above for more information.


The life of layer hens are brief, abusive, insanity-inducing, and utterly heartbreaking. They are viewed and treated as machines. Their value lies only in their production. They are robbed of their individuality, their sanity, their rights, and their lives.

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CITATIONS [Bibliography at bottom of post]

[i] United Egg Producers, “Animal Husbandry Guideline for U.S. Egg Laying Flocks – 2016 Edition,” 2016,

[ii] Bruce Friedrich, “The Cruelest of All Factory Farm Products: Eggs From Caged Hens,” The Huffington Post, March 16, 2013,

[iii] Marian Stamp Dawkins and Sylvia Hardie, “Space Needs of Laying Hens,” British Poultry Science 30, no. 2 (June 1, 1989): 413–16, doi:10.1080/00071668908417163.

[iv] Ian Duncan, “Scientists and Experts on Battery Cages and Laying Hen Welfare,” accessed April 11, 2016,

[v] Friedrich, “The Cruelest of All Factory Farm Products.”

[vi] “The Hard-Boiled Truth: Modern Egg Production in the United States,” Exposing the Truth about Eggs, accessed April 11, 2016,

[vii] “Forced Molting – United Poultry Concerns,” accessed March 31, 2016,

[viii] Sara Shields and Ian JH Duncan, “An HSUS Report: A Comparison of the Welfare of Hens in Battery Cages and Alternative Systems,” 2009,

[ix] Friedrich, “The Cruelest of All Factory Farm Products.”

[x] Chase Purdy, “Egg Industry Yielding in Cage-Free Fight,” POLITICO, accessed March 31, 2016,

[xi] “Egg Producers See Big Shift to Cage-Free Eggs by 2025,” accessed March 31, 2016,–.

[xii] “US Cage-Free Egg Layer Flock Is Rapidly Increasing,” accessed March 31, 2016,

[xiii] “Cage-Free Eggs Aren’t What You Think They Are,” Mother Jones, accessed March 31, 2016,

[xiv] “Coalition For Sustainable Egg Supply : Final Results [higher Death Rates],” Coalition For Sustainable Egg Supply, accessed March 31, 2016,

[xv] Jennifer Chaussee, “The Insanely Complicated Logistics of Cage-Free Eggs for All,” WIRED, January 25, 2016,

[xvi] E. U. Directive, “Council Directive 1999/74/EC of 19 July 1999 Laying down Minimum Standards for the Protection of Laying Hens,” Official Journal of the European Communities (L 203), 1999, 53–57,

[xvii] Jason Lewis, “French Farmers Ignore Battery Hen Ban,” January 1, 2012,

[xviii] Directive, “Council Directive 1999/74/EC of 19 July 1999 Laying down Minimum Standards for the Protection of Laying Hens.”

[xix] “Forced Molting – United Poultry Concerns.”

[xx] A. B. Webster, “Physiology and Behavior of the Hen during Induced Molt,” Poultry Science 82, no. 6 (June 2003): 992–1002.

[xxi] A. B. Molino et al., “The Effects of Alternative Forced-Molting Methods on the Performance and Egg Quality of Commercial Layers,” Revista Brasileira de Ciência Avícola 11, no. 2 (June 2009): 109–13, doi:10.1590/S1516-635X2009000200006.

[xxii] “Forced Molting – United Poultry Concerns.”

[xxiii] “The Animal Welfare and Food Safety Issues Associated With the Forced Molting of Laying Birds – United Poultry Concerns,” accessed March 31, 2016,

[xxiv] “Modern Egg Industry (Poultry),” Poultry (Penn State Extension), accessed March 31, 2016,

[xxv] “Forced Molting – United Poultry Concerns”; M. Yousaf and A.s. Chaudhry, “History, Changing Scenarios and Future Strategies to Induce Moulting in Laying Hens,” World’s Poultry Science Journal 64, no. 01 (March 2008): 65–75, doi:10.1017/S0043933907001729; “Induced Molting of Commercial Layers | NC State University,” accessed March 31, 2016,; Webster, “Physiology and Behavior of the Hen during Induced Molt”; “Shedding Light on Induced Molting,” accessed March 31, 2016,; “The Animal Welfare and Food Safety Issues Associated With the Forced Molting of Laying Birds – United Poultry Concerns”; Molino et al., “The Effects of Alternative Forced-Molting Methods on the Performance and Egg Quality of Commercial Layers”; W.D. Johnson and Brown, eds., The Feeding of Poultry; The Poultry Book (New York: Doubleday, 1905); James E. ; Nixon Rice Clara; Rogers, Clarence A., The Molting of Fowls (Cornell University Agricultural Experiment Station, 1908),

[xxvi] P. S. Holt, “Molting and Salmonella Enterica Serovar Enteritidis Infection: The Problem and Some Solutions,” Poultry Science 82, no. 6 (2003): 1008–10.

[xxvii] United Kingdom Department for Environment, Food & Rural Affairs, “Laying Hens: Code of Recommendations for the Welfare of Livestock,” April 8, 2013,

[xxviii] “The Animal Welfare and Food Safety Issues Associated With the Forced Molting of Laying Birds – United Poultry Concerns.”

[xxix] “The Hard-Boiled Truth: Modern Egg Production in the United States.”

[xxx] McDonald’s Cruelty: The Rotten Truth About Egg McMuffins, 2011,

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  1. Laura Martino on 04/11/16 at 3:26 pm

    Testify! Thank-you. 25 years into being a vegan and it’s moving to read your posts. #animaldignity. We have a local group we are working on growing here in CT. Twitter @lauraemartino1

  2. John Beske on 04/11/16 at 8:34 pm

    The visual story of the breakdown of the layer hen was really powerful on every level – the text, the voice, the drawings. Some of your best work yet. Congrats.

    • Emily Moran Barwick (BiteSizeVegan) on 04/13/16 at 10:50 pm

      Thank you so much. It was heartbreaking to make (as these always are). But of course nothing compared to what they go through! Many thanks for your kind words

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